Being afraid isn't cowardly. Succumbing to it, is.

I battle this paranoia myself, as well as simply having to interact daily with those strongly under the influence of mind control and mass media programming. Interactions obviously require creating an "ego" that the mind controlled person finds acceptable. This grates on my efforts to eliminate ego.

I find relief with marijuana, sativas help alot during the day and indica's help with sleep. If you're in a state with prohibitive marijuana laws, try hemp oil. CBD is legal and available online, helps tremendously with anxiety, pain and inflammation.

Lastly I've found good results from listening to solfeggio and isochronic tones. I will typically play it at low level while listening to the radio or whatever.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QKlMTQesq7g

A few words of wisdom I've come up that help me out.

"Wash your own mind or someone else will do it for you."

Stop watching TV. Seriously, cancel your cable or satellite. You won't though. Not that you won't, you can't.

The way that the Snowden affair is presented in the media is formulated to make you fearful of our government. Those that are scared won't resist. Subconsciously, the TV reminds us everyday why we should be fearful of our leaders

It is much more secure to be feared than to be loved. -Niccolo Machiavelli

I'm kind of at peace with it all these days.

I've taken on some interesting topics over the years, and almost had a full blown nervous meltdown over a few unexplained digital attacks on my home ip, which I directly attribute to my online activism. However, almost 12 months later and I have been neither suicided nor recruited.

My point is, clearly I'm either making connections that aren't there (pretty unlikely imo), or I am causing some trouble for someone. I used be fearful of that fact. I've recently come to peace with it all though. There nothing I could ever do to stop a hit squad, but I at least know this: I've caused less monetary damage to these people, than they would have to spend to even put surveillance on me, let alone kill me.

I guess deep down you have to have a bit of a death wish to be a true activist (the kind that go to protests, and stand face to face with riot cops), even though so few of them actually die. Cognitive dissonance and all that. Gotta reconcile those opposing ideas within your own head to be at peace with yourself, even if it means admitting that you'd have to be somewhat crazy to ever admit you oppose the status quo.

Also, I quit smoking soon after my IP-attack scare, and that did wonders for my anxiety/paranoia. There are plenty of other drugs (usually prescriptions) that cause massive paranoia, so maybe look into that if you take medications for ADD/eating disorders.

Try and relax man, your fears are not necessarily unfounded, but the fear and anxiety will only leave you less rested, and less ready to deal with any actually issues that come your way. Take some comfort in the fact that there's at least a dozen major activists in line for CIA treatment before you or I.

Welp, if you got locked up over an internet search, then I'd definitely be completely fucked due to my sub.

In all reality though, it's doubtful that level of fear is helping your wellbeing.

How is roll over and accept whatever shit happens in your society a good mentality? And how is death such as small problem? Are you recruiting kamikaze pilots or something? Yes, fear is an emotion that has to be carefully managed but if it motivates constructive action and keeps you alive I’m all for it. There is such a thing as rational fear and it depends on the extent of the threat. You may perceive OP to be overly afraid but perhaps he's just more aware of the extent of the threat than you are.

Juicyloops, you have my full support. Send me a PM if you want.

Eat some Psilocybin mushrooms and that should help you.

What if I said to you 'you haven't even seen bad'

ha ha go with the first comment and stop worrying.

Beck once said 'life goes were it does' or some such misquote.

Do what you think iis right and try to learn more each day.

You should probably talk to a mental health specialist, NOT BECAUSE YOU'RE WRONG AND I THINK YOU ARE CRAZY , but because it seems this is really affecting your day to day life and talking to a trained professional can help immensely with learning how to cope with feelings like this.

Land is cheep in Alaska.

Man, I have struggled with this too. The world is turning into a pretty fucked up place, and it gets easier to start thinking like this every year as it becomes more and more logically justifiable.

My best advice is to go make some friends. The way I see it, they won't come after you if they know there's a bunch of people who will look into it if you mysteriously disappear. And it's way easier to get paranoid when you're alone, so be alone less.

Also, remind yourself that you haven't actually done anything morally wrong, or even illegal [I'm assuming you haven't]. Talking shit about the government on the internet or disagreeing with the status quo aren't crimes [yet]. If you can't have faith in the rule of law, at least have faith that they won't do anything about it for fear of public outcry.

FInally, try to move into the farther out into the country, if you can. Big cities make me paranoid, and I'm assuming it's the same for other people. It makes sense, really. You have a lot more freedom out in the country, as less control by the government is needed to keep order. And being by the wilderness is reassuring, in an "I can always flee into it and never be seen again" sort of way.

Perfect. Full immersion method

Well said. And I should be more clear, I live life to the fullest, I'm am avid outdoorsman and love my job. But when I'm home alone at night it gets freaky sometimes. And I feel that it's fucked up thay I should be scared of my own gov in my own house