Anyone else feel like they're just waiting around for the "big catalyst"? ( conspiracy )

submitted by crop_circle_jerk

People ask my opinions on world events and the amounts of fucks I have left to give is so sparse that I cant even come up with the words to acurately describe my feelings on any world events anymore. The second anyone brings up the manufactured lunacy they're calling the "election", I have to bow out. As far as people of my age group are concerned, either support Sanders or you're satan. After I was "red pilled" so to speak, I couldnt contain my rage and became a crusader for the truth, trying to wake up anyone I could, protest anything I could, find out the truth no matter how fucked up it was. Now five or six years down the line of researching geopolitics, history and conspiracy theories I feel that I am no closer to the truth than I was at the beginning. I dont know what sources to trust or where to turn my eyes and ears. The only conclusion I have reached is that its proabably best if humans were just eradicated from the earth to restore balance to the universe because we obviously cant do anything right. Is this where the truth lead you? To become a passive observer of a slow moving trainwreck sitting around with our thumbs in our asses waiting for the catalyst so the NWO cleptocrats can finally roll out their one world fascist dictatorship? I had my theories of where this was all heading and now im just confused, waiting around like the sheep I used to talk shit on. I feel that any civil unrest up to the point of this catalyst will be futile because the people have successfully been divided and conquered. I dont know what to expect anymore, but I have at least let go of my fear of this inevitable death and destruction.

Antiseed117

I think what's coming will make Hitler's reign look like Saturday morning cartoons. I'm waiting for this to end already as well.

Wuttier

I usually don't answer to these types of posts, because they hit too close to home. However, I do want to add something to it, which is this; "Never underestimate the power of stupid people in large groups" and "In a mad world only the mad are sane". Two stupid quotes which, unfortunately, are all too real. I think I have been through the same thoughts, as you so eloquently described, a couple of times now. Like a repeating cycle of the Kubler-Ross grief cycle , till a point of numbness where you constantly ask yourself the question "What's the fucking point?". I didn't found an answer yet. A bit of spirituality does help in accepting that the journey counts and not the end. Take it one step at a time, making each day a bit more special by doing something nice for others or selfish-crazy-fun. Don't end up like a depressed fearless apathetic asshole like I was years ago.

crop_circle_jerk

Yeah the first paragraph pretty much sums it up. I am a painter and dancer and its pretty much what I live for. Without them as outlets theres a good chance I would have offed my self by now. Only partially kidding about that haha. I will check out all of those books, I just recently finished alan watts Tao the watercourse way. Buddhism/Tao are pretty much the only religions I can relate to at all, not that they are technically religions but yeah. I have done a shit ton of LSD and have had two genuine DMT experiences that changed my life forever. Definitely the most beautiful experience of my life, I died and realized how trivial all the pain i felt in my old body was and I really just let go of my fear. after I came back into my body I felt this huge weight was lifted and realized It was my fear of death and I cant keep living in fear of the future because it really doesnt matter in that infinite space. It was one of the realest things ive ever felt but I guess theres no way of knowing if it was "real". Anyways, Im not even depressed about it.. just hopeless... but its not all bad because letting go of that fear has encouraged me to do as much fun shit as possible and travel the world before it all goes down the toilet. Its tragic and beautiful but the tragedy has helped me cherish the beauty so much more.

k_digi

you seem frustrated -

I can give you all the answers but hilariously you won't believe it.

(i find this very humorous) (actually me, just a few years ago wouldn't believe it either)

I am fortunately completely free of all that stress i sense in your post here.

but unfortunately it's not for everyone, but i can say this.

don't stress to much, and don't give in to amazement

  • : D

crop_circle_jerk

I am very frustrated, and apathetic. Its not all bad though, my pessimism about the future has encouraged me to live my life to the fullest. I have been to 25 countries in the past 5 years and I take in beauty like its my last day on earth. Bitter sweet indeed.

trollification

This is a really intriguing post - curious to what age group you are in. I am in my 40s yet feel the same way as you (maybe slightly more hopeful).

crop_circle_jerk

Thank you, I am 24. I try to remain hopeful but I have always prided myself on being a realist but recently I have had trouble keeping my head up.

trollification

Man those are pretty mature thoughts for a 24 year old. When I was 24 I was thinking about Pizza, chicks and video games.

But seriously, I am glad to see that someone your age is not asleep at the wheel and just blindly listening to the manufactured media in this country now. I honestly fear that for there to be any real change in this country it is going to have to happen in your age crowd. When I spout the same stuff, no one takes me seriously - I am simply and angry old white dude who does not want to change my ways.

But when a bunch of young, strong, angry 24 year olds take it to the streets and say the same stuff? Hell - it will mean a lot more. And guess what - a lot of us in our 30s and 40s will be backing you guys up because we are sick of it too...

crop_circle_jerk

I agree that our age group might be the only hope left. All of my close friends feel the same way that I do and are very pissed off, just lacking direction in how to even begin to try and change things. I have pretty much no hope for these kids growing up now who are 3 years old and already glued to an ipad and on adderal. When the time comes I will be taking to the street, and were long overdue for a revolution... it just makes me wonder how much more of this people are going to take before we revolt.

trollification

I have been wondering that too. Seems like in the 60's your age group would take to the streets frequently. Now days it seems like your age group has a much higher threshold to reach before it gets pissed off at the current corrupt system that has taken control of our country. I attribute this to the constant "tranquilizers" that have been fed to your age group in the form of expensive phones, stupid reality TV, online-everything, porn, etc. It's hard to realize you are living in a jail cell when the bars are blocked by distracting bullshit. But I am hopeful, because it sounds like you guys are starting to see it and that is a good thing. Take the Red Pill.

Z14

I also feel synchronized to chime in here.

From the way OP describes our inner and outer worlds, you can sense that they are actually a reflection of each other. We are going through natural reaction of discovering the truth, trying to do something about it, running into a wall and now standing back thinking wtf. It is because we went Solo vs Team with established strategy to mute us.

I am here for the same reason, figure out how to team up.

Hello to the opposing team btw, who are always listening in. Let's dance.

EngelbertHumperdinck

911 was the catalyst. It's all down hill from here.